Princess Life Goals

I've been learning things about myself. 

Like this morning I woke up really grumpy. 

There were no cartoon birdies singing, I wasn't smiling at the sun & greeting the day.

I was like grumpy cat. 

Bloated & frowning.

Now why you might ask?

I'll tell you why.

I worked all week at a stressful location. 

No, not stressful. 

Hostile.

Think like a really really fun place to work but the opposite. 

And then say after that less than lovely day I spend every night at home applying to jobs because that's what the mature thing to do is. 

If you don't like your job, apply for a new one. 

Or if your job pays you so little you may not have rent money in two months then frantically and desperately apply to anywhere that pays $15 an hour. 

Yes I'm making less than that right now. I don't wanna talk about it.

And then let's say that this place of hostile fun calls you the morning of your day off because they "have you on the schedule" even though it wasn't on your schedule and even though you couldn't possibly go in to work because then you'd go into overtime and we all know that going into overtime at any corporation incurs the wrath of satan. 

So you ignore it but feel resentful that their condescending judgement was the first voice you woke up to and now your grump makes grumpy cat look like the fucking Easter bunny. 

I hate everyone.

I'm burnt out. 

I'm stressed about money. 

And I should be jubilant in anticipation for my departure to Spain!

Hello!

This was going to be one of the most amazing adventures of my life!

But everything else in my life felt so negative and draining and I had no energy left to be excited. 

I didn't write all week. 

I didn't run or climb all week. 

No exercise. No creative expression. 

Just people treating me like I was unworthy of a remedial entry level position at work and then hours poured over a computer hoping to land an interview and impress someone enough to think I'm worthy of 32K a year. 

I wanted to make a video entitled I HATE EVERYONE but I decided that really wasn't the "message" I wanted my channel to convey.

So I let myself relax for the morning and then started getting ready to perform. 

We had two princess parties today and I had to find some way to rally because no little girl wants a grumpy Anna at her party. 

I got coffee which helped a little. 

Except the people ahead of me after waiting in line got to the register to order and spent the next several minutes hemming and hawing like, "Hmm....well, gee....I don't know."

And I fought the urge to interject that if they weren't prepared to order then perhaps they shouldn't get in line so those of us on a time crunch who KNOW how to order a fucking iced coffee could get on with their lives without being interrupted by their mundane indecisiveness.

Make that a venti, this princess needs to tone down her bitch fast.

I got in my car and scrolled through my princess sister's texts to the video she sent me. 

It was of the little girl who was our first party of the day jumping up & down & giddy in front of the camera. 

"Yay! I'm so exciteeeeeeed! I just want to shout hooray! Yaaaay!"

It was the kind of stuff that melted the Grinch's heart.

And it soothed my frustrated spirit and made me smile. 

I met my fellow sister and when we arrived at the park I was actually happy to be there. 

The way little kids look at you when you're dressed like a Disney Princess makes you feel like a hero.

And the little girl, whose adorable video had melted my grumpy heart, was even more adorable in person and was dressed exactly like a mini me, with the braids, the dress & even the pink cape. 

And the second party we did was equally as adorable and full of as much appreciation. 

The look on that little girls face when I asked her if she wanted to sing Do you wanna build a snowman? was full of so much amazement, joy & wonder, it made me the happiest I've felt all week.

Driving home with my sister I whined about my job search and how much I was dissatisfied with my current job. 

"My goal is to make this business such a success that I kidnap you and we just do this full time as our careers."

And the mere idea of it, of getting paid all the time to make kids feel that inspired and full of joy made my heart sing like an actual Disney song.

'Yes,' I said. 'That is my new life goal.'

I'm going to become a full time professional princess. 

And make every work day as joyful as today was. 

Now--

    to just make it happen....