my soul mates

You know you have good girlfriends when they cyber stalk your enemies for you.

There are certain things you don't want to know, or don't want to actually do.

But having your best friends do the dirty work for you it's suddenly wildly different when they chime in, Oh I know what they said, here let me tell you...

I laughed because there was no point in me even trying to stop her, she was going to read me what was posted and by the time I formed the words, No I don't wanna know, she was already half way through the paragraph she was reading aloud. 

And you know, after I knew what it said, I was kinda glad.

The reason the quote reads The truth shall set you free is because the truth does, in fact, set you free. 

That's why it's actually really fantastic to know it. 

A friend of mine I used to talk to nearly every day went dark and I had no idea what was going on with him. 

Was he hurt? 

Was he depressed?

Did he hate me?

But he'd never write me back.

And the not knowing part drove me bananas.

So I cyber stalked him, as good friends do, and I saw that a picture I had posted to his wall had been deleted. 

He'd had time to delete my loving post but never texted me back.

Oh. HELL. No.

Not cool. 

Not okay in any way, shape or form.

So I wrote him again, confronting him for doing that and asking if he didn't want to be friends anymore and I finally heard from him. 

And I'm still pissed he missed my birthday and blew me off for so long but at least knowing the truth, I realized it had nothing to do with me. 

People forget that most of the time it actually has nothing to do with you. 

Or me. 

It's all about them and all their shit. 

But for all the people who don't make time for you, who don't text you back, who block and delete you, there are the oh so wonderful dear ones, who support you completely, who defend you and uplift you, who bring you food and wine when they come over because they know you didn't go to the store, who stalk your enemies and ex boyfriends and let you know what you're not missing, and they are the lights of my life, the sanity to my sheer madness. 

And I wouldn't trade time with them for the world.